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The Hubs & Me at Lambeau. Need I say more... |
Life is such a mixed bag. Highs and lows, joys and sorrows,
tears and giggles, and everything in between. What has been amazing to me
through the Hubs’ medical mystery tour these past few months is how quickly one
can turn into the other in just a matter of seconds. One minute I’m laughing at
a an antic of a grandchild, the next minute tears start burning behind my eyes
as I’m quickly reminded that if cancer has its way, this same grandchild may
never remember his Papa Gary. Or I can be sitting on the swing with the Hubs
out by our pond, sun on our backs, fall leaves rustling, and my soul overflowing
with joy, then Bam! It suddenly hits
me that the likelihood of us sitting on this swing together next autumn is very
slim. Joy crumbles into sorrow before I can even exhale. The toll of flipping
emotions is like sandpaper scrubbed on the heart. So, I must not linger there
long. It is what it is. Such is this season we find ourselves.
Our adventure together is almost complete. So much joy. So
much laughter. So many lovely experiences. Oh, what a life it’s been. When
Gary’s prognosis turned frightful, several folks suggested we set out checking
off those ‘bucket list’ items as quickly as possible. We were encouraged to
start ‘cramming life in’ at break-neck speed. What they didn’t realize is the
bucket list was completed years ago. We’ve done everything we’ve ever wanted to
do. Nothing has been left undone. We have the marriage we’ve always worked
toward… yes, worked toward. We
have the ministry we always prayed God would direct. We have the children who
have rattled that bucket and have it gushing and spilling over. Grandchildren?
Quivers full of them. Friendships? Another quiver or two full… overflowing in
fact. Have we said everything that needs to be said? We’ve spent almost
forty-two years saying it. I can honestly confess we’ve been given more than
we’ve ever asked or imagined. We don’t have to wake up every morning in this
panic to ‘git’er done’. Our entire life together has been about gittin’er
done.
We have absolutely no regrets. Who gets to say that? If it
turns out that Gary only has a few weeks or months left on this earth what will
we do? Be assured that we’ll wake up tomorrow morning and just keep doing what
we’re doing. That’s the only way we know how to live this out.
The motto verse for our entire love life has been: “Trust in the Lord with all your hearts.
Lean not unto your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him. And He
will direct your paths.”
I’m here to tell you, nothing has ever been truer.
deb
4 comments:
I hope to be able to say these words about my own marriage one day. We are working! Thanks for a beautiful example of love. It has always been easy to see how much love you have for each other. Even has a teenager I'd noticed the adoration in your faces and action and teasing words. Thank you.
Thank you,joy, for your sweet word of encouragement. It means a lot coming from you.
Thank you for expressing yourself so wonderfully in this post. I'm deeply touched with your willingness to use your literary gift to express the things going on in your heart. What a great combination of joy mingled with sorrow. What a blessing to be able to look at life without regret.
Thank you, Norman. So good to hear from you. I pray all is well with you...
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